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ello~ Back again!
Happy Mother's Day!

I havent been blogging for the past month. Cuz i've been just justeither too busy, too tired or just not in the mood to blog. The past two weeks have been really just really draining for me. Both physically and mentally. I've been really frustrated recently. Been somehow on a short fuse, putting up a mask. Just pretending somethings had never happened before. I guess in the past three months the only thing that had kept me going was the love i was receiving. That had sustained me. Kept my engine going. On and on. Now its finished.I'm running on fumes now. I need a refill. Something better than coca cola.=)

I fill pretty much very lonely now. My guy friends can only do so much. Like Yi Ting who studied with me today at the "viewing platform" over at my place. Set up my hammock up there. Studied. Really studied.

My phone's sitting at a corner now. not buzzing with messages filled with my refills like in the past. My mind is all "you you you you you you you you you you you" now. I cant think of anything else. Being like that hurts. HURT BITES!

Now i'm looking at the phone, hoping you would just call, and just talk like we used to, like nothing had ever happened before. Hoping~





I just want to love and be loved.